Balancing it out

I went down a little his week. Only .2 pounds but I'll take it! After a lot of stress and an Oktoberfest dinner I still managed to go down! I think this has to do with taking walks almost every night and adding more activity over the weekend. I really lean on exercise to erase some of my eating mistakes and I use my dog as an excuse to get out. Happy about the loss, but this week I hope to improve on my tracking! Even though I had a small loss I felt a lack of control since I was so stressed out. I did not track much at all and that makes me feel even less control. So this week I will track every day during the week and at least the first meal for each day of the weekend. I will also focus on 5 servings of fruits and/or vegetables a day! The 5 servings a day keeps me focused on eating right! Next week I hope to see a pound loss.

This too shall pass

This past week I went up a little bit, less than a half a pound, but none the less I went up a bit this week. But it is okay because I know why. I am planning some home improvements and it is costing more than we anticipated. Stress = weight gain. Well maybe it depends on the type of stress. This kind of stress makes me just wanna eat. I think it is the feeling of loss of control in the stress that does it. Also had my lady friend in town so it could have been that...

It's not a lot of weight so I am not upset, but also not looking forward to tomorrows weight in. There was very little tracking happening and a lot of stress and some more outta control eating. None the less, life sometimes is a roller coaster. I can ride this one out.

This too shall pass!

Another Milestone- 2 posts in a row!!

I AM FINALLY UNDER 200 pounds!! The 1.8 pounds I lost this week took me to exactly 199 pounds! I literally cannot remember last time I was under 200 pounds....maybe high school?

What does this mean to me? It means I am REALLY gonna get down to my goal weight (still not sure what that is). This also means I can literally do ANYTHING I set my mind to!

How did I do the last couple weeks? Well the week before last (after my last post) I ate out A LOT! Lost my way a bit. Ate too much carbs and not enough fruits and veggies. This week I ramped up the fruits and veggies and turned up the activity! So I guess that was enough to undo some of my ill behavior. HOORAY! Oh and I tracked-tracking is your best friend.

This is magic and at my WW meeting today I almost cried! I was tearing up. I cannot believe this, the moment is so surreal to me. I NEVER expected to get this far when I started! WOW!

This change has been from inside out and the weight is just a bit of what I lost. I also lost being obsessed with perfection, self-criticism and self-loathing. What I have gained from this experience is immeasurable and priceless. I earned this, I did this and I made it happen. Watch out work- I really am unstoppable!

Another milestone!!

OFFICIALLY 60 POUNDS DOWN! Can I hear a hells yes?! It feels AMAZING! How much longer do I have to go? No idea and that is okay, because whatever my goal is I KNOW I will get there! It is a fact!

I will also mention this was the week of my wedding anniversary and I still managed to lose weight. I ate out 4 times over the weekend!!! Oh and I enjoyed every minute! It is possible to love every minute of your weight loss journey!

Yeah I STILL love food just as much- if not more than before. But my relationship with food is totally different. A mutual respect, an understanding. I love it, even lust after it. But I respect every bite and the experience of eating. I am in control, food is no longer a crutch. I stand on my own.

I thank you for sharing this journey with me and even more for the support and encouragement! It keeps me going every day, especially the touch ones!

Close to a new milestone!

Down another 2.2 pounds! YAYYY! Most importantly I am a total of 59.6 pound down! Only .4 away from 60! Wow just typing that number kind of blows my mind! Also once I lose 1.4 more pounds, I will FINALLY be under 200 pounds! FINALLY! Last time I remember being under 200 pounds I think I was in high school.

This week was good, got lots of activity in, didn't go too crazy with my indulgences. So I was expecting a loss, but since my lady friend is in town I thought I may stay the same or go up a little. This was more of a lose than I expected.

How much does this mean to me? This is one for the Sophia's History book. This is a pivotal moment in which I realize I will get to my goal weight (whatever that is)! This is the moment I am proud of me. I am actually proud of myself! I am becoming the best version of myself, the version I fantasized about. Who is she?

She is the Madonna of Sophia. She is empowered, confident (not cocky), talented, fearless, sexy and unstoppable! That is what I am becoming- taking small steps everyday to get there! It is happening- it is REALLY happening.

This is not about weight loss it is about transforming my life!!

If you are thinking you can't do it- sorry you are wrong....YOU CAN DO IT! The power is inside- under the voice inside that says you can't is your gut that says you can!

We all like a Before & After but what happens in between in more important!

This is a recap of the last two weeks! (Sorry for not keeping up) Last week I went up in weight pretty significantly *gulp* I am definitely NOT perfect. But I understand this is life and life happens! The reason I went up- A day of really great wine AND really great food for my friend's birthday. Did I go overboard- yes, HELLS yes, BUT this is my life and I am going to enjoy it. Unfortunately with that came a 3.2 pound gain. Yeah it sucks, yes it is a setback, however it is part of life and I lived it to the fullest. I was NOT happy when I learned this, however it happened and I just needed to accept it and move on.

I did just that and I am down 1.8 pounds this week! What did I do differently? Well there was way less food and drink debauchery.  It was confined to one meal with micro brew and pub food YUM! I also made sure to walk to the pub and at one point I even jogged! I also added in more activity during the week- weather walking or cleaning I moved more!

Long story short- I want everyone to see here my struggles AND my successes! 

We all like a before and after, but what happens in between is WAY more important!

Getting closer!

So last week I lost another 2.4 pounds for a total of 58.8 pounds! I am also very close to being under 200 pounds! (I have been over 200 pounds for a loooong time!) I have been at this for a while, which is why the mantra "Persistence NOT perfection will get you to your goal" is so powerful to me. I have been on WW since January 2011. So it has been 19 months. I could have lost it so much quicker, but I am a big believer in enjoying the journey there.

I did feel this is odd, since I have not been tracking on the weekends. But if it is working I need to keep going with it! I am also more active than ever, watching 2 hours of TV is now boring to me. I don't really like to sit still.
I am enjoying this though- I can feel parts of my body I have never felt before. I am always trying new things, it is a whole new life.

No longer a spectator in life- I am living the life I always wanted to live! I am being the Sophia I always wanted to be!